love love love…

Happy new year everyone… let me share a message from a queer friend, mj…

 

Let’s celebrate!

Remember a year in the life of friends…

Remember the love…

Share love…

Give love…

Spread love…

Measure your life in love…

Cheers!

lines…

Words that I hold dear…

Words that I kept…

Words that I’ll share…

meyng loves meyng…

 

12-08-2007

It’s really hard to show everybody how you feel…

Scared of letting them know what’s bothering you…

 

Sometimes lying would be the an excellent remedy

To overshadow the tears from your eyes…

 

You hide the pain by smiling…

You hide the tears by laughing…

And you hide the sadness by lying…

 

And sometime you want to trade your life

Just to experience a minute of happiness

That will really change everything…

 

But that is what makes it ironic…

The more you seek for happiness…

The more you loose it…

 

12-13-2007

I sometimes pretend to be happy…

Talking a lot and laughing out loud

So that nobody would know what’s really inside…

 

But at the end of the day…

I sometimes find myself all alone…

Encountering the crucial truth…

 

That I’m broken inside…

No laughter can take it away…

 

01-27-2008

You have your place in me…

Forever locked just for you…

 

02-20-2008

…I’ll be your meyng from this day on…

 

06-17-2008

…naturally lovely…

 

08-17-2008

Behind every smile, there’s a good story to tell…

We cry as we fall – mostly secretly…

We try to be strong though deep within we’re crashing…

I hate it when I laugh but inside I’m hurting…

I’m broken…

Wanting…

Waiting to be filled…

I’m feeling incomplete…

 

09-03-2008

In the beauty of your soul…

First glance I knew…

The tenderness within,

I felt for sure was true…

I want to touch you…

Feel you…

Be part of your gentle you…

Wishful thinking…

I don’t think time would allow us to…

 

09-22-2008

I think of you…

Of us…

And I know if it’s really “us”…

We’ll have our time again…

gray…

sadly my love…

some heavier things…

i’ll try to address…

indefinite leave, is what it’s like…

my heart is just tired… 

for now, i can give you love from the universe…

drrrunk…

I was browsing of my multiply account and saw these pictures from xtian. Hay, reminiscing drunkards from Salinas mansion… Who would have thought that “Ganngsta’s paradise” would put down my bro? Hahaha…

 

Photos courtesy of Xtian Lucea… yeah!

eve…

I was unable to go out early on Dec. 24^th, so I decided to ask my mom to come over in Makati and spend the Christmas Eve there. We heard Christmas mass at the greenbelt chapel by 8:00pm. The chapel was packed. It was my mom’s first time to attend mass at greenbelt and she liked it. Fr. Jun, the chaplain, celebrated the Holy Eucharist. We were delighted to hear little Johnny’s story…”what I said before, I’ll say again… watch”…

 

We had our dinner at Masas afterwards. We were four: my mom, my bro, his girlfriend EI and myself. It was a good dinner. It was not the best I had so far but it was good. Now I’m craving for ensaladang mangga. : )

 

I wonder how my dad spent Christmas.

annual review…

It was AR time again. No matter how hard I try to be casual about my plans career-wise, it was still like an interview. Oneal noticed it, I was sure. I don’t know, I was never comfortable talking about work, competition and career. I always had to drag myself to talk about how I want to become in a few years or I see myself long-term. But it was something I had or we had to do.  I was quiet most of the time. Good thing it was Christmas Eve, I could use that as a reason to be quiet. Overall, I think it went well (at least on my end). I got inputs; more input than I expected. Ultimately, it was about challenging myself to do more and thus, getting out of my comfort zone.

wait in faith…

It was my very first time to complete the nine masses before Christmas. I prayed for my friend’s intentions. I prayed for meyng’s. I prayed for mine too, of course. I was sad. A few days before completing the novena masses, I already knew that I wasn’t going to get my wish. It was Dec 21^st   when I couldn’t take it. I cried, again. I prayed. I tried to reach out but I was unlucky. I could always call but I’d rather that she’d call. Alone, it was such a familiar state but it still hurts like the first time (if not worse). “Wait in faith”, it is all I could do for this.

tears…

In my vow of silence, I shall speak to the universe… and the good universe shall hear me…

happy christmas…

A very merry Christmas!

I pray that everyone is happy in this time of the year.

Thank you and God bless you…

no remedy for me…

“In depression . . . faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the foreknowledge that no remedy will come — not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. . . . It is hopelessness, even more than pain, that crushes the soul. And I am crushed… and there is no remedy for me”

depression…

“Depression moods lead, almost invariably, to accidents. But, when they occur, our mood changes again, since the accident shows we can draw the world in our wake, and that we still retain some degree of power even when our spirits are low. A series of accidents creates a positively light-hearted state, out of consideration for this strange power.”

20081213 UST reunion

sana ngayong pasko…

Cheesy huh? Imagine a priest singing this song. It was the 3rd day of simbang gabi and the priest presider for that night sang this song. It was lovely. At least i think it was. 

 

Pasko na naman
Ngunit wala ka pa
Hanggang kailan kaya
Ako’y maghihintay sa iyo

Bakit ba naman
Kailangang lumisan pa
Ang tanging hangad ko lang
Ay makapiling ka

[chorus]
Sana ngayong Pasko
Ay maalala mo pa rin ako
Hinahanap-hanap pag-ibig mo
At kahit wala ka na
Nangangarap at umaasa pa rin ako
Muling makita ka
At makasama ka
Sa araw ng Pasko

Pasko na naman
Ngunit wala ka pa
Hanggang kailan kaya
Ako’y maghihintay sa iyo

Bakit ba naman
Kailangang lumisan pa
Ang tanging hangad ko lang
Ay makapiling ka

 

draft…

discuss gdd metrics with jen g

discuss asp metrics with april

gdd questionnaire for leah

 access change

 query on workplan owner

 gdd manual link

review and end rollout emails, from sol

spc update for scampi and weekly

rca discussion with sanny on efix

compute for PPBS

meeting with inya on RTP tickets

discuss with jame banares n the closed action item for the outlier

dec 9 PPAD rework

meeting with jeg on ppad

discuss gdd sv with t&d

collect old SPC check with Vivian

discuss current PPBs with Vivian

discuss cut off dates from MDP

update RCA and send to VIVIAn\

look for marh asp report and reply to ajie

mcdong…:)