doomsday…

In 10 days I’ll be 28. Couldn’t believe it but it will be another year past. I would like to think that I’ve done quite a few great things. I’ve been a good daughter, sister, friend, lover and student. I’ve changed. I was more open and insightful. I’ve made quite a few choices and I’ve lived by it since I made them. I have loved more than ever and I’m happy. I’ve been a corporate slave and that helped me in being able to buy nice things. I have made plans, short term and long term. I’ve been more thankful about everyone I love. Life is one big adventure that I intend to pursue and share.

blaahs…

A few more days and I’ll be dead. A few more days and none from my list of plans for us have happened. It’s ok, I guess. Through the years I have gained more patience and have become more understanding. But sometimes I tend to over do it and tend to forget myself in the process. It was hard but there are these little things that I get from you and your love, of course, which kept me sane. A while of silence wouldn’t hurt (I would like to think that).

 

I have these questions and I have these plans. I’ll probably keep them.

whoaaah…

It was my dad’s birthday yesterday and I would like to think that he had a good one. I may not be with him physically but we had a chance to talk through text. I was still in bed when I greeted him “happy birthday”. The exchange of sms was short but sweet. I’m not sure if I miss him but it was nice talking to him. He celebrated his birthday with his brothers and sisters, nephews and nieces in Pampanga. They had a celebration there. I chose no to come and visit cause I was still tired, emotionally and physically. Happy birthday dad and I always wish you well.

8 rhymes with…

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awaiting…

It was hard. I tried not to but you needed a friend. I tried to be just a friend. Friday, the last day of the work week and I still had to have a restroom moment. There was no tissue so I had to use my hands to wipe my tears. What a day, and what have I done to deserve such fate after a hard work. I know life is unfair but a little wish… can’t I have that? Sometimes I tend to think if I did something really bad to deserve such fate. But then, it’s all me. I made all these to happen and I should know the consequences. For a few moments of happiness, a thousand fold of whatever. And sick and tired that I am, I still choose to stay. I just hope you’re still the person, “the one who awaits all these”.  

a tale of two paulas…

It was almost midnight and Oneal, Pola and I were still in the office. We were about to go home and were just bashing on each other to relax, hehe. Then we remembered about the “guide for dummies” that we had to send for the High Maturity campaign. And we did a bit of brain storming. We ended up with making a short video using our ever reliable support phone. We just had one take and I almost peed on my pants laughing. By 1am this was sent to the rest of the project members here in Manila and was then sent to everyone we know…

 

Attempt to stardom… Smile!

 

stay…

why would you not…when her face is what you long to see first thing when you wake up

why would you not…when her touch soothes your trembling veins

why would you not…when all that could comfort you is her voice

why would you not…when her presence rocks your world

why would you not be…if she is the person who awaits all these

out there…

you seem to be out of my league all of a sudden…

lym…

There is only one thing that cuts across all realities. And that is love. I love you!

max’s with dad…

It was exactly one week before my dad’s birthday. I decided to meet up with him over dinner. My dad and brother were ok with the schedule and so met. For a change, we had dinner at gateway mall. My dad changed since the last time I saw him. He looked older and he lost weight. He was craving for crispy pata and then decided to eat at Max’s. Dad brought a camera and we took pictures of each other. Just the three of us having dinner… It was sweet. We had the usual catching up on things. It’s been around 3 or 4 years. I was unsure of it before but now, I guess, it is just a matter of accepting it.

werk…

Saturday was still workday for me and Dadz and some other project-mates who were on weekend support that day. I woke up with my mom gone for an invitation and my brother was still sleeping. I was planning to be in the office by 11am but I was an hour late. It was a good day. I was able to finish a lot. We ordered food for take out at Greenwich and ate at the office. It was a few minutes past 6pm when I called it a day… at least for work…

say something…

I wish to hear from you. Say something… Tell me anything… Just anything… I’m not liking this silence… it worries me… scares me… I’m praying things would go well with you. You know I’m just here for you and I wish to be part of what you’re going through… I’ll wait… lym… I miss you…

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When we doubt, we make choices… what’s yours?

house and his word…

The thing about being a good loser is that you’re still a loser… – house

hollywood…

“No commitment… instant gratification…” I heard somebody say this line. I wonder why it got stuck in my head. I even forgot what I was thinking after I heard this line. Anyway, I just felt like posting it for now.