empire records…

Empire Records one of those movies which reminds me of highschool. Hay, sweet. I remembered Liv Tyler, Renee Zellweger, Robin Tunney. I remembered how we thought of shaving our heads because of Robin.

 

Story traces a single tumultuous day in the lives of several young slackers who work at a bustling store named Empire Records. Anything can happen and everything does–relationships are tested and dilemmas are solved. How could I forget some of the lines in the movie? Here are some

 

 

·          You just say “I love you”. What do you want, written instructions?

·          You know that feeling when you get out of a warm bath… well… you make me feel just like that

·          I am guided by a force much greater than luck

·          In the immortal words of The Doors, ‘The time to hesitate is through.’

·          do you think it’s possible for a person to be in love with someone else and not even know it

·          In this life there are nothing but possibilities.

Of course, nothing beats a movie with a good soundtrack. My all-time favorite song was part of this soundtrack…” ‘til I hear it from you” by the Gin Blossoms, Counting Blue Cars, Light my Fire are just some that I liked. I feel sleepy.

rachel…

I caught an episode of Jay Leno’s show and he had this guest with whom I got myself hooked on. The topic was about politics, Obama and McCain. It was weird, I had my brain stirred up. These topics doesn’t actually interest me but their conversation was interesting. I ended up listening to what they had to say. Another good thing was that he had Rachel Yamagata and her band perform. Cool! Rachel rocked the house. She didn’t sing my fave song but it was good performance. Nice.

dream…

Last night I had a dream. I was about to join some sports fest. For some reason I just saw myself in a locker room and trying on all the shoes I had inside my locker. Red, black, white and gray. I couldn’t remember how many pairs I have tried on and I woke still unable to make up my mind on which pair of shoes to wear. I wonder what the dream could mean. Shoes…

lovesong…

I was trying to go over the acoustic playlist that we have and fell in love with this old song from Hootie and the Blowfish. It was in gradeschool that I first heard about this band and I found them cool, laidback and grungy. I liked it. I feel old, hehe… anyway, here’s closing time and hold my hand. at least parts of it…

 

hold my hand

With a little love, and some tenderness
Well walk upon the water
Well rise above this mess
With a little peace, and some harmony
Well take the world together
Well take em by the hand

cause Ive got a hand for you
cause I wanna run with you

Yesterday, I saw you standing there
Your head was down, your eyes were red
No comb had touched your hair
I said get up, and let me see you smile
We’ll take a walk together
Walk the road awhile, cause

cause Ive got a hand for you
Ive got a hand for you
cause I wanna run with you
Wont you let me run with you? yeah

Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
Ill take you to a place where you can be
Hold my hand
Anything you wanna be because
I wanna love you the best that, the best that I can

 

closing time

Well I hope that I don’t fall in love with you.
‘Cause falling in love just makes me blue.
Well the music plays and you display your heart for me to see,
I had a beer and now I hear you calling out for me.
And I hope that I don’t fall in love with you.
Well the room is crowded, people everywhere
And I wonder should I offer you a chair?
Well if you sit down with this old clown,
Take that frown and break it, before the evening’s gone away,
I think that we could make it,
And I hope that I don’t fall in love with you.
Well the night does funny things inside a man.
These old tomcat feelings you don’t understand,
Well I turn around to look at you; you light a cigarette,
I wish I had the guts to bum one, but we’ve never met.
And I hope that I don’t fall in love with you.
I can see that you are lonesome just like me,
And it being late, You’d like some some company.
Well I turn around to look at you, and you look back at me,
The guy you’re with has up and split the chair next to you’s free.
And I hope that you don’t fall in love with me.
Now it’s closing time, the music’s fading out.
Last call for drinks, I’ll have another stout.
Well I turn around to look at you; you’re nowhere to be found,
I search the place for your lost face,
Guess I’ll have another round.
And I think that I just fell in love with you

pinching…

Ever felt love for someone so strong that it hurts physically… it hurts you because you can’t have all of that person… with that you wish you would have all of that person or have none at all… crazy huh?

a visit…

Oct 8 Mama Mary visited our home and we held a thanksgiving mass. I guess it was a good thing that I was on sick leave and was able to help out mom with the preparations and of course attend the mass. We prepared spaghetti and siomai as a snack after the mass. The villages hold a monthly mass for the Virgin Mary and this was the 3^rd time that Mary visited our home. The priest discussed faith in God and that we humans need not have to stress ourselves in understanding God’s plan or way. We just have to believe in Him and know that He will not do anything that is not for our good. It is true that we sometimes do not understand why God allows us to undergo pain, hurt but we must know that there is reason for all these. And that reason is for our good.

manyak…

I was wearing a short dress one day. I was on my way home from galleria and rode a bus. I fell asleep and woke up because of a weird feeling in my thigh. I was so tired but I just had to wake up because it felt that it was going up my dress. Then I saw somebody’s hand. Maniac! I was so tired that all I did was to look at his hand and then to him. A few more seconds and he transferred to another seat. Whatever pleasure he got with his fingers on the sides of my thigh. Whatever man.

solving puzzles…

I dreamt that meyng sent me a puzzle over text message just a while ago. I didn’t realize it was a dream until I woke up, looked for the puzzle in my inbox and found out there was none. I was about to reply that I fell asleep, I just woke up and am just about to solve the puzzle. Hay, dreams. come to think of it, it’s been a while since i last solved a sudoku puzzle.

hahaha…

Nothing beats having a good old laugh with someone. I was just having a chat with my mom over coffee and she shared about what happened last night. My mom and some friends went to a wake. The brother of one of her friends passed away and they paid a visit to give their condolences. While they were at the wake, they realized that they didn’t have enough money. One of then offered to cover the “abuloy”. As they were about to hail a cab, my mom’s friend looked at her purse and noticed that she didn’t have money. And so they ended up laughing. I was still trying to understand what was funny about the story, but hey, my mom surely had a good laugh. She told me she almost peed her pants laughing (now, that’s funny, hehe). She was still laughing while telling me the story.

vision…

My lead and I had a talk about our expectations from each other. It was good conversation, I must say. It’s been a while since I had a meaningful expectations setting with an immediate supervisor. I appreciate her plans for me career wise and that she’s open with my own plans as well.

 

After the career plans, we talked about personal stuff. We were both careful about it. I just shared what I can share and same with her. Then she asked me about my vision. “What is your vision?” Vision?!. I was taken aback with the question. How do I respond to that? With that, I gave her a smile and told her that I didn’t have any. We ended up laughing. She told me that it was ok. But it is better that I have a vision because that would define everything that I am doing right now. It makes perfect sense but I don’t have any. Hmmm, vision… Something I should think about…

work? what?

It’s been more than a week of rest from work. I’m afraid that my officemates are already used without me around. I wonder if there are already changes in terms of how we go about work. While I’m home, I try to read emails and let me say that there were tons of them. An average of about a hundred emails everyday are flooding my corporate inbox. And yes, I had to attend to these email at least 3x a week to prevent it from being full or else, I won’t be getting future mails.

 

I can say that I have fully rested. I no longer feel sick and I feel ready to work… Again… But I now have to keep in mind my health. It’s been an experience for me, this getting sick and tired thing. I’m thankful for this in a way. If not for this, I won’t realize what matters most in life. Now I know what they are.

 

A few more days and I’ll be back in the corporate arena. Not that I’m into competition, I actually hate competing. But competition is there together with politics and more of the good stuff. I’m happy of what I’ve become and the mark I’ve made for myself in the project I’m currently with. I may still lack vision of what I really aim to become but I guess, above all, what matters is that I have developed a good disposition.

random photos…

I was browsing through my phone and saw some random photos. Just felt like posting them.

meme…

It feels good to know that I have people who I love dearly are just within reach. One time I asked meyng to pray with me and we did.  It was sweet. I prayed for her heart’s desire and she prayed for my healing. I feel blessed that we have each other. I’m glad to know that I have someone who keeps me sane in times when I’m almost about to loose it. It’s good to have some one to show you a better perspective on things. I pray that meyng would finally have what is in her heart all along.

bed rest…

I really planned to spend the whole week resting. But I was needed at work and so I had to “work from home”. I only had dial up at home so goodluck. I was tempted to buy the prepaid broadband kit but it was out of sock. I felt bad for my teammates who had to do my work. It was crazy. I couldn’t rest for long since I had to tend to a few calls from my lead and teammates. There was so much work that I wanted to go to the office but I held back. I needed to rest. I may have had enough rest already but I have 2more days plus the weekend. I can almost imagine everyone wanting to pull my hair for getting sick in the middle of the busy months. Funny thought but I got sick and I didn’t plan this.

sick and tired…

 I was already feeling under the weather Tuesday morning. There was lots of work and so that was where I focused on. I told myself it was good that Wednesday was a holiday and that should be enough to rest. Tuesday night was supposed to be basketball night but I decided to stay in the office to finish some stuff. 10pm, I really wasn’t feeling ok. A little over an hour, I was home. Just changed to my sleepwear, brushed my teeth and washed my face.

 

Wednesday was fever day. We didn’t have thermometer at home so I wasn’t able to watch my temperature. But it sure felt that I was sick. My muscles were aching and my body felt a bit numb. My mom had me take medicine and I had no choice but to stay in bed and rest.

 

Thursday was still fever day. I felt worse. I had cough and colds. Breathing was hard. I lost my appetite as well. Mom decided to take me to the hospital after her work. Changing clothes was a drag. I felt cold. When we got the E.R., it was full of people. Some were even told to go to another hospital for lack of room. There were kids and old folks suffering from hypertension. I was just advised by the doctor to take antibiotics for he suspects that I have a viral infection of some sort. I had CBC, PC, X-ray and urine. My PC and X-ray results didn’t look good and I was advised to come back and have another set of test the following day.

 

Friday was rest day and still was fever day. My mom and I went to the doctor but no internist was available in the afternoon. We went back home and continued my rest.

 

Saturday was a non-fever day. I went to the doctor alone. I was saddened by the possibility that I had pneumonia. And still my platelet was down. I was advised to have another CBC and PC and spot film to further check my lungs.

 

Sunday morning my mom and I went to mass. I was already feeling ok but a bit sweaty. Took some rest in the afternoon. Prayed for a good test result the following day.

 

Monday was a better day for me. Test results were better except for my platelet. At least I had one less to worry about. Was advised by the doctor to have one more week of bed rest after which I should be fit to work. This is good I’m better.