Archive for August, 2008

my own near the train…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 31, 2008 by paulateresa

Last weekend, I told my mom about my interest in having a place of my own. She was surprised and asked me if I was sure about it and I said yes. She suggested a condo unit and I told her I want to have something that I could afford. My mom was excited about it and not because she wanted me out of the house but because finally, I’ll be starting to pursue my dream of owning a place. I was happy that she was excited for me. My mom knew I was nervous about the whole thing but she was very supportive.

 

The following day, she offered to accompany me on the “open house”. I insisted that the agent explain the payment terms first before I get to see the sample unit. Expensive, but I thought that I could handle one of the payment options. I must say I suddenly had second thoughts. I thought that the place was cute and I liked it.

 

I have one month to really think about buying the unit…hopefully I’ll get to own it…

Message from daddy about the se – sse…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 31, 2008 by paulateresa

Dong told me of your promotion in Sept. and everybody here in Angeles has learned about it! Di daw sila surprised… beauty and brains ka raw! Congrats! You indeed are my pride and joy kahit dumadami na utang mong blowout sakin!

what to do with mysehehelf…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 31, 2008 by paulateresa

What do you do when you don’t know what to do? Should I wait? Will there be a sign? I may know the answer to these questions but it just won’t do if it’s all me. It’s been hard and the past couple of weeks have been harder. Is it over? I was trying to avoid this question but this may be the right question to ask. For the most part, I was to blame. It may take time before I could ever forgive myself. May even take a longer time if I still don’t hear from you. Every night I promised myself that this would be the last time I would cry. I fail every single time. It helped a bit trying to go ever keepsakes and messages and then try to put them away. But still, what do you do when you don’t know what to do?

nega…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 by paulateresa

Somebody asked what I was looking forward to in the future…

 

I answered “wla naman…i try not to look forward kc it is like expecting and sometimes it leads to disappointment”…

 

I’m so negative daw… am I?

se to sse… too!

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 by paulateresa

My brother got promoted as well. Woohoo! I’m so proud of him. Congratulations bro! You deserved it and I know how hard you worked for the team. Successful career and a promising love-life… Sweet!

conference…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 by paulateresa

Another “booboo” to add to my list. Because of my desire to have someone become part of my life and be friends with my friends, I just lost it. One stupid deed and I seem to have lost everything. I tried to call, reach out but nothing. She may be right, it’s time to let go.

 

I may never be over. I may live the rest of my life in misery if you call keeping all the good times shared misery… I think not… things will just be different…

se to sse…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 by paulateresa

I noticed that everybody was talking about ratings and career appraisals. Lately, Oj was asking me almost everyday if I already met with my career counselor (our manager) and for a week or two I said not yet. Finally, after almost a month, Jenny asked me if I had 15minutes. I said “ok” and she said, “I’ll meet you sa IdEx”. IdEx, by the way is a big room where most interviews or discussions are held. It is a not quiet room as it is always packed with people. I made Jenny wait and felt guilty. Anyway, I always have a pen and paper handy in this situation (which I had no idea was about).

 

It was quick and very casual. Jenny wrote my rating and explained a little and then we’re done. I said thank you and thought “what the hell didi just happened?!”.

 

Immediately, I pinged my brother and told him everything. Sweetness! I send an email to my friends to share the good news and sent text messages people who have been an inspiration. It was a good week. I was missing somebody but what I do? What can she do?  

forwarded essay… good read…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 by paulateresa

AN OPEN ADVICE ABOUT CAREER DECISIONS:

Several of my staff has approached me lately about their career

decisions. I really appreciate my staff opening up to me. It is quite

reassuring to know that they’re still having second thoughts about

leaving. Here is part of the email I sent to a “confused” staff:

I have worked for more than 5 companies already so I guess you might be

correct in saying I have had considerable experience about leaving and

moving on. I will not stop you nor tell you to leave, though of course it

will be better if you stay. In any career decision, leaving or staying I

believe, based from my personal experiences and as an HR professional,

should only be done for the right reasons.

For one, you shouldn’t leave because you don’t like several people in the

company, nor should you stay because of the friends you have made here. At

the end of the day, it is your life. Your friends or “enemies” should not

make or break your career. If you let them be the deciding factor, then

maybe you should think twice. You are the craftsman of your fate and the

captain of your ship. Captain Hook shouldn’t be one of your worries!

Do not leave nor stay because of the “brand” of your company. If that was

the case, I would have rushed off and sign my JO in “C”! Ask yourself

whether you want to be a big fish in a small pond or a small fish in a

bigger pond. Know your priorities. Only you can answer that.

Do not leave the company because you’re so damn frustrated about the way

things are being run, or stay because you have this “messianic complex”

that you can change things overnight. Be realistic about the things. Learn

to accept that there is no perfect company. Be accepting that change is a

slow and painful process at times and be thankful that you realize and

act on things that can be changed and improved. Definitely, do not leave

or stay just because your parents want you to. I know I am advocating

obedience to parents but again, we are talking about YOUR career. But

learn to value their wisdom and discern well.

Money isn’t everything. The package being offered now might be better but

look at the long-term prospects. Do not leave or stay just solely on the

compensation package. Look for growth prospects and review their career

plans for you. Your immediate gains today might actually be a loss a few

years from now if you do the Math.

Boredom is another challenge all professionals are faced with during lull

periods in their career. Do not leave because you have become so bored

with your job. Do not stay either because you want things as they are.

Change is inevitable in any organization. Talk to your boss. Ask for more

responsibilities or other tasks if you’re bored. Enroll in a special

course. If you’re satisfied with the status quo and is just waiting for

retirement hoping things will stay the same, you’re in for a big

disappointment – either you will be forced to change or you will be forced

to leave. Be ready before that time comes. Boredom or complacency is

perennial battle most professionals have to deal with. Arm yourself with

creativity everyday!

Tonight I suggest you rest well. Sit still and listen to what He is

saying. PRAY. I have always made my career decisions through His guidance.

He was and still is my Career Adviser/Talent Manager. Your work, our work,

is a vocation. He knows us more than we know ourselves so trust Him for

whatever plans He has for you. You can never go wrong.

Trust me it works!!!!

And remember: Use your head to get to the top. But use your heart to stay

bonus…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 by paulateresa

While I was busy doing last minute checks for the spotcheck and making sure all the participants are ready with all the requirements, I received a ping message from a manager asking if I had a minute. I was about to say I was busy (and I really was), but for some reason I said sure and I offered to go to her cube. And with ADMP, SCAMPI and all those acronyms, I went.

 

I said “Hi” and sat down. Quickly, she handed me a paper to sign and explained what the piece of paper said. Bonus! It took a while before I realized that it was a bonus because I had my sweet little brain pre-occupied with work. And then Oj pinged me to say “congratulations”.

 

I gave my mom and friends a treat. I saved some for my dad when I get to visit him. As courtesy, I gave everyone who inspired me to continue working a treat. Well, almost everyone.

 

I appreciated the bonus so much. It felt much better when I get to share the blessing with the people o love.

while…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 by paulateresa

It’s been a while since I last wrote something. I almost forgot my site, my username and my password. But it was ok. Time off from all these was what I needed, I guess.

linya…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 17, 2008 by paulateresa

…be my good friend and still be in-love with each other…

dance like sick…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 9, 2008 by paulateresa

i don’t know the title of this song but it sure is making me dance like sick… hehe…

Freak out… Freak out baby… wag kang mag freak out baby…

wag kang mailang kung may kasama ako… di ko na ngayon problema ang feelings mo…

Freak out… Freak out baby… wag kang mag freak out baby…

waiting…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 9, 2008 by paulateresa
it may feel like it’s worth the wait but… is it? it’s been a while and i wanted to see you again… i wanted to be with you again… just be us again… i’ll stay and wait, i’m not going anywhere… i’ll wait for that time when we can just be together and not worrying about anything… i really hope it’s soon… this may be the last wait…

worn me down…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 9, 2008 by paulateresa
i'm currently in-love with this song...
Worn me down by Rachel Yamagata

G           D
Gone, she's gone
    Em          C
How do you feel about it
G             D
That's what I thought
       Em            C
You're real torn up about it
      G            D
And I wish you the best
    Em            C
But I could do without it
      G        D          Em      C
And I will, because you've worn me down
      G       D           Em      C
Oh, I will, because you've worn me down

        G           D
Worn me down like a road
      Em             C
I did everything you told
        G          D
Worn me down to my knees
       Em           C
I did everything to please
        G          D       Em           C
But you can't stop thinking about her
        G          D       Em           C
No, you can't stop thinking about her

           G             D
And you're wrong, you're wrong
    Em      C
I'm not overreacting
G            D
Something is off
    Em            C
Why don't we ever believe ourselves
   G   D       Em                 C
And I, oh I, I feel that word for you
      G       D           Em      C
And I will, because you've worn me down
      G       D           Em      C
Oh, I will, because you've worn me down


C        D             C       D
She's so pretty; she's so damn right
        C           D
But I'm so tired of thinking
Em              D
About her again tonight

bukas…

Posted in Uncategorized on August 3, 2008 by paulateresa

Tomorrow I should be better. Focus… Focus my ass… hehehe…