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Sent: Thursday, 29 May 2008 10:22 AM
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Good morning!
Happy na ulit ako… hehe…
Well, sort of…
I heard what I needed and have been wanting to hear last night and I was content…
Hay buhay…
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Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2008 2:48 PM
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kaya mo yan!!!
nyahahaha…ako nga ulit gawa eh…waaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!
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Sent: Tuesday, 27 May 2008 2:18 PM
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Jeck…
I just want to say something…
I’m sad…
Don’t ask me why…
I just want to say it…
I’m feeling oh so neutral today… and mighty jealous about sha and carl… heya guys! finally… but i’m still here…
alone and waiting to get tipsy with this… 
A leaf and a bottle…
Cheech and Max…
I’m trying not to think about it too much. One tragedy after another. Good thing I’ve been loaded with work lately. Finally there’s a reason why I have all these work (RCAs, ADMPs, Admin tasks, Metrics, KA reviews…hay). For one last time I wanted to talk things out but it may not be a good idea. But how do I get over this without any closure?
The time may never come. Perhaps I should be thankful that I had a chance to say what I had to say before you end this. But for one last desperate attempt, I tried to make contact. Busy. Maybe not today, or not ever. Next lifetime? Nah…
This saddened me. We may have known that this would happen but I went through it anyway. Be in Pain for a few moments of happiness.
Found comfort in their strangeness. I said yes to my friend who invited me to join her officemates to watch the Pyro Olympics at the Mall of Asia. Pizza reigned supreme that night.
The fireworks amazed me. I almost felt bad because I didn’t have meyng with me. But I guess it was better that way. Good thing I was with good company. I look forward to going out with these people again.
Thanks Jeck for the invitation. If not for this, I may have spent my Saturday in my room sulking.
It wasn’t shen… it was her… she was just probably searching for someone with the same name as mine.
I was excited that the week was finally over. I was looking forward for the weekend. Hoping I’ll get to see meyng. But as usual I didn’t hang on to the thought (I know it’ll just frustrate me if it won’t push through). I went to MSE to finish up some work. At times I would look at the things I was supposed to give you (barobaybay, el nido, 100 islands). Ok, I was excited.
But then, things just don’t happen as you want it to be. Sometimes it makes a fool out of you. And it did. It made me think if it is really meant for you to receive my gift, or the well over due prizes from our bet. After the frustration was the pain. I thought I could get used to feeling. I thought wrong. Today was even harder. Was it me? Was it because all these time I’m just trying to convince myself that I’m not doing anything wrong?
What am I to you? Seriously… I know I am asking a question that would just hurt me in the end. But how could you not ask? Funny that I wanted to say that “I love you” or “I miss you” at this situation. But I can’t. Funny because you love another person.
I just feel bad bad bad…
in the deepest waste of happiness , i realize what they meant by , “sadness is beautiful”…
Pain… pain… pain…
So deep it’s hardly known to me…
Hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy…
Plans… gifts… all gone…
i miss…
i shouldn’t have looked inside the box…
the truth is just so hard to handle…
Soy un perdedor….
I’m a loser m…
So why don’t you kill me…
I was about to sleep tonight until I got an sms from a friend. Bad news, it said. I almost did not continue to read but I was still awake anyway. So I did. I just lost a loved one. I got scared and got out of bed. I had to talk to someone, my brother was still out and I didn’t want to wake my mom. I almost did call someone but I shouldn’t. I called my friend Rhoda and asked if she got the news already. I was hoping to get a yes from her because I don’t want to be the one to tell her the sad news. But then I had to. With my voice shaking, I told her. She was shocked as I was when I got the message. Silence.
Ey is one of the few people who I rarely see but I consider a good friend. She was one of the few who I can share anything under the sun, and yes, one of the few who knows my secrets. We became friends since college. We were groupmates, classmates and we used to hang out a lot in school. There are so many things I would miss now that Ey is gone. (Or probably just around, watching over us. Hope not!).
I would miss her weird laughter, her mole, and her almost squeeking voice when she’s excited. I would miss our short chats over ym. I would miss a friend who is there to listen and give her two cents worth on things.
Ey is in the sky. There she can be by our side.
We’ll miss you EY!… 051408
Remember how you used to say…
I’ll be the one to give up or go away…
I don’t know where you are…
But I’m still here…
When will I ever get to hold your hand again?
Crash into me.
Curiosity killed me. 7 more lives left.
Dead.
Blank.
Fallen.
Sunk so low.
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