Last night while I was on my way home. I suddenly had a headache. It was so bad that I was already sweating and nauseous. I almost did asked the bus driver to pull over and then just take a cab. Then I was home, kissed my mom who was busy with her work and then grabbed the phone. I had a chat with my meyng and cute lil’ Ligel. Headache gone. Some people just have this gift of taking away your pain. I feel blessed to have known a few…
Another week passed and I haven’t done anything yet. Well, maybe some. I wonder what’s wrong with work and me? What happened to my plans… my projects? I need something to make me work… make me work… work… work… work… it’s been months since I did my status report. I need a rain check… probably a quick one, just to get my groove back. September is near and the whole workforce of the company I work for knows what that means…
I miss… I yearn… I crave… I ache… I long… I wish…
Maybe it’s over.
For a while I thought I could but I can’t.
I don’t need the pick up lines. I don’t need to psych myself up to meet. I don’t need to have a pretty face. I don’t need to make a ton of money. I don’t need to have a great job. I don’t need a BMW. I don’t need to hide… I don’t need ‘em to feel good about myself.
I miss our hands. I miss going home early from work and hang out with mom then go out to meet my friends or just stay home.
For the past weeks or months, my life’s been fun, interesting and crazy. It felt good for a moment but I can’t help but be emotional sometimes. I’ve met crazy people and some really nice ones too.
So there, maybe there’s no more sansrival. I’m back to being me.
No matter what happens, your family will always be there. It’s been a while since folks from my father’s side had a grand reunion (or at least it’s been a while since I last attended). I am not much of a reunion person but I love seeing people hanging out. I wouldn’t have gone to the reunion if not for my brother and my cousin. But it was not that bad. I had fun hanging out with my cuzs. Walk around Fontana… laughtrip… foodtrip… soundtrip… and oh… the Water Park guests the best band with the best vocals with the tightest undies… Ako’y sayo… Ika’y akin lamang…
My cute lil’ cuz and I “art bonding”…
I spent Holy Thursday and the rest of the Holy Week with my family in Cavite. I bonded with my cousins (Imai, Leiman, Amla, Weisson, Anton, Crista…). I slept my way to Holy Friday. Treated my bro and cuz for brunch at Jollibee. Called my meyng in the aftenoon (wink wink). Afternoon nap. I joined my cuzs for the procession and prayed. Had a blast when I joined my cuzs for a joy ride. Shnuggled with my folks ‘till we fell asleep. And then…
It’s Saturrrdeheheyhehey… too-too-rooo-too-too… Saturday was MOP Day! MOP for Manila Ocean Park… It was my first time to touch a starfish… Exciting! Fish fish and lots of fish…
And then it was time to go back home, back to work, and back…
i may be looking for love…
i may have found real love in meyng…
ridiculous love…
inconvinient love…
consuming love…
can’t-live-without-each-other-love…
but i need to hold back a bit before this consumes me meyng…
before i lose control…
blah blah blah… i’m addicted to whatever it is we have…
i dont’ have any assurance in this but i’m still holding on…
i’ll hold on until i don’t… or maybe hold on forever…
It’s always a joy to meet old friends and do some catching up over dinner, a cup of coffee, or no food at all. Sometimes it feels awkward especially if it’s been a while since you last saw each other. But that’ll fade away in a bit. It’s funny how I thought that it would be hard to make friends with them at first. Hmmm, now I’m wondering how we became friends. I don’t know. Probably our “madness” was what bonded us together. It may still be the same reason why we’re still friends. Cheers to our madness bella!
03/16/2008, 1:13am…
and i’m still awake…
i thought of having your weekend…
but it’s yours to spend…
And this was after all was said and done…
How many people could claim that they have had their picture taken along ayala avenue…
February 29, 2008…
I thought I could settle with friendship. I thought I could share 2 bottles with you and not expect to have the sweet experience repeated. I thought I could spend 5 minutes with you and not think of being with you at least the whole day. I thought I could hug you and that would be it.
Snake Island March 4 to 9 2008 is one of my treasured days. I may not be my friends but I was with my brother and his equally crazy but sweet friends. We went to the beautiful Puerto Prinsesa and then to the enchanting El Nido, Palawan. My brother Ding Dong, Jedar, Ryan, Charlie, Eleyn, Glenn. We went to the crocodile farm and had our pictures taken with a poor baby crocodile. I say poor because that baby croc may be super tired of having his picture taken with humans the whole day. Baker’s Hill. This place I think is for kids and crazy adults like us. We had our pictures taken with the statues there and made friends with the ostrich couple “Marge and Homer”. El Nido… I was overwhelmed by it’s beauty. Beach… waves… wind… sand… lovely sun…
gotcha!… hahaha…
It’s always a pleasure to see two people who are happy together. Out of the billions of people living in the world, they have found each other. They have found somebody they can be with in tough times… Somebody they are crazy about. It would be such a perfect world if everybody has that “someone”. But perfect would be boring. This may be the reason why there are people deemed to be “alone”. Alone is not that bad. To be alone is possible but to be alone and not receive love is not. The universe is so full of love. So much love and it’s crazy.
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